it's like a fat kid getting a taste

I know that the love I dream of is only in fairy tales. But I'd settle for real love :). Today one of my best friends got engaged. I'm sure it was incredibly sweet cause that's how her guy is hahaha. And she totally deserves it. I'm sure she broke down crying, she's probably still crying, and I'm sure it was just wonderful. And I have to say when I got the text from her saying she was engaged I was so excited and happy for her but at the same time I was sad. Cause now in our group of 6 girls there are only 2 of us that are single. And the other girl hasn't ever had a bf and she seems pretty content with it. But that's just how she is. She's wonderful! Me on the other hand . . . . I hate it lol. But in my other group of 3 none of us are married, but one has a baby and her and her bf/baby daddy live together and the other girl is practically engaged so once again that leaves me still hating it. I love my friends and I only want the best for them. They mean the world to me. I am just ecstatic for them when they find someone who makes them happy and when they get married. They all deserve the best and deserve to be happy and hopelessly in love.

It just hurts when you want to feel that too. When you know what your missing out on. It's like a fat kid who's gotten a taste of chocolate cake and then gets sent to fat camp. Other people get chocolate cake but not the fat kid. Anyways. . .

I want some romance for a change. I don't think it's that hard to think of something and there's always the internet, just Google it and get ideas from other people. Or ask someone. I know guys don't like to talk about stuff that doesn't involve sports, shooting something, food, or something incredibly gross, but I think guys should grow some balls and ask each other for help. Get some ideas from friends it's not that big of a deal. I just don't understand. Anyways. . . . .

I think I'm just bummed out. And I'm sick and having a fever is really annoying. I'm just hoping I don't have to wake up in the night to take more ibuprofen to get rid of it. That would suck. Anyways. . . .

I think I've complained enough for tonight. . . . probably enough to last a while.