it's time to listen to myself

Often times we get caught up in what we think we should do, what's important, we listen to others and what they think we should do. We lose track of ourselves. There are so many different voices telling you what you should do. To many peoples opinions playing a roll in your life. You forget to listen to yourself. What is it you want? Is this what you want? This can really be a problem when your going through a lot of changes in your life. Your afraid that you don't know what to do anymore, you don't know the right decisions to make, so you let others make them for you. When you realize that you figure out that this stuff isn't that important. It's just one more thing in life you have to get through. Worse case scenario you make a bad decision and God brings you back on track. He always does. If you get off God's plan for you life He always will bring you back. You might have missed something that He had planned for you but He'll put something new in your life and put you back on path. God will always be there to pick you up when you fall.

So what I've been thinking is what I should be doing what I thought was so important. . . . . it isn't. And I quit. I hate quitting anything that I do. Feels like I've failed, wasn't strong enough, wasn't good enough. And with this that feeling is slightly there but for the most part I feel relief from the stress, the bull shit. It isn't worth the stress that it's taking on me. It isn't what I wanted. I knew it from the beginning but I didn't listen to myself. I listened to everyone else who said this is perfect, exactly what I was looking for and needed. NO IT ISN'T!!! This isn't what I was looking for at all and it's defiantly not what I need right now. If something effects you this much it can't be the right thing. So I quit! It's scary but it is what it is. And like I said worse case scenario I'm making a mistake but God will bring something else into my life to get me back on His path for me. But I really don't think I will regret not toughing it out here. It's causing more damage than it is good. I don't know Gods plan for my life and it seems to change on a daily basis but I know that He has one for me and He will always be here for me no matter what I do.