Tuesday, March 30, 2010

that time of year




Well it's allergy season for me and I'm dying! I have severe allergies with grass, which is like one of the most abundant thing on earth, so yay for me. lol. Well in Albany I had an allergy doctor there and prescription nasonex medicine to keep me from losing my mind being sick. Well being in Atlanta I haven't really needed my nasonex I've been able to deal with it with just over the counter stuff, I guess Atlanta just doesn't have enough grass lol. Well this year I spent 2 weeks in Albany and my allergies went crazy! So now I'm back in Atlanta, dying from allergies, and nothing seems to be helping. I have tried tons of different medicines and nothing really helped. (by the way when the directions say drink a whole glass of water with this medicine DO IT! I forgot and an hour later I was throwing up! It was not fun). Well to get an appointment with my allergy doctor you have to do it months in advanced so I was like screw it I need a doctor up here. So I went to Doctors Express Urgent Care, which is some kinda thing off of Piedmont Hospital. It was great! It's a new building so everything is really clean. I was the only person in the waiting room which was nice. The nurses were really nice and the doctor was funny. He came in and checked out my ears, throat, listened to me breath, etc. All the usual stuff. Then said "well your congested in your ears, sinuses, chest, EVERYWHERE!" (now as if that wasn't funny enough imagine it coming from a small Korean man with a thick accent) It was hilarious! Then he said it seemed like I have severe allergies and I told him about my allergies. Then he looked at my chart and said "well I see you can't take coden so I can't give you the good stuff hahaha..." It was so funny! I was laughing and coughing at the same time. Everything he said was funny. So it was a great visit to the doctor. He gave me a prescription for steroids to jump start me and my nasonex. I am so happy to have my nasonex. I swear I don't know how I can survive with out this stuff. It's a life saver. hahaha. . . So I'm really hoping and really excited about getting better!

Monday, March 22, 2010

what kills me

There always seems to be something going wrong with me. As a baby I had colic and reflux and asthma. As a child I caught the stomach virus all the time and I never showed up on strep tests. I once got scarlet fever from not being treated for strep because the test was negative so after that if the symptoms were there they treated me for it. Like most children I had the chick pocks so that was no big deal. I hardly remember it (unlike my sister who caught it twice. she had a mild case, I got it from her, then she got a regular case of it from me lol). In middle school I had more problems with my asthma but nothing to serious. i started having pains in some of my joints. The doctor said it was just growing pains but they continued even after I was done growing. I later found out what they were and I'll get to that in a min. I got mono in high school along with several other students who had drank from the water fountain at school (which is why I never drink from fountains any more). I was diagnosed with psoriasis and severe allergies. Then acid reflux disease in college. None of these though explain why I have always been tired (I got in trouble a ton all through life for falling asleep in class, at church, everywhere). They also don't explain why my white blood cell count has always been lower than it should be.

First off my psoriasis isn't severe I have medicine for it so the only thing it that sometimes my legs itch, o and don't forget the arthritis that goes along with that. The psoriasis didn't show up till 2005 but the arthritis I've had since I was in middle school. The doctor always said it was just growing pains, even after I had stopped growing. What the hell do you think it is now you dumb ass! Anyways When the dermatologist told me that I had psoriasis and that I'll probably get arthritis I laughed and knew immediately what my pain had been all these years. So now I just pop some ibprophine when the pain starts and knock it outa the way.

So a few years later my stomach starts to bother me, which really isn't a surprise since I constantly got the stomach virus as a child. Well it got really bad so I went to the doctor. They did an endoscopy on me and determined that I have acid reflux disease. Now that shouldn't have surprised me either since I had reflux and colic as a baby. But non the less I was pissed. Seriously? another thing that I'll have for the rest of my life! But now I have it under control to a certain extent. I know what I can't and shouldn't eat, I take medicine once a day, and I deal with stress much better. Now don't get me wrong it's still a HUGH PAIN IN THE ASS to deal with. I do eat stuff that I shouldn't cause it's really really good (mostly mexican food hahaha). I have lost weight from this but I sloooowly gain some of it back. I guess that could be considered a plus, staying small hahaha. . . .

Well psoriasis and acid reflux are a daily battle but there's something that only works on killing me once a year and that's allergies. It's deathly! every spring it hits me like a ton of bricks. Stuffy and running nose, itchy red eyes, headaches, sore throat. It's incredibly aggravating. My major allergy is grass. Can you believe that GRASS! People always say just find out what your allergic to and then stay away from it. . . well that's a lot easier said than done. Grass is everywhere especially down here in south Ga. The ground will literally be yellow from all the pollen. Cars are covered in it (lucky for me my car is yellow lol). Forget about germs and bacteria flying through the air we need to be more concerned about the pollen! I'm suppose to be taking Nasonex, which is a prescription but since I've moved to Atlanta I do alright with just off the shelf stuff. This is because Atlanta doesn't have enough grass to cause me serious problems. Right now though I am in Albany, which is hell. I've been down here for a week and I feel shit! I don't know how much longer I can take it. My other allergies aren't as bad. I'm allergic to certain types of mold and mildew (which can be cool cause I can walk into a room and tell you if it's there lol. See if your allergic to something then your more sensitive to it than most people. If it's an air born allergy like mold/mildew you can usually smell it unlike people who aren't allergic to it). Then there's orris root. If you don't know what that is then your like most people in the world. Orris root is what they use to make anything with a fragrance. That's right perfume, cologne, lotion, soap, detergent, air fresheners, etc. They all have it! There are a few companies that make perfume and cologne that don't use it but those are going to cost you an arm and a leg. However there are companies that are making allergy free products. I have dryer sheets that are fragrance free that are for people who have allergies. It's wonderful!!! lol. But anyways that can be a pain in the ass to deal with. And my last allergy is cockroaches. Yes that's right cockroaches. lol. It's an air allergy though, all my allergies are air allergies. I never knew that cockroaches were producing anything that you could smell but aparently they do. I can walk into a room and tell you if there's a cockroach in there, dead or alive. I will start sneezing really bad. It's not a terrible thing to be allergic to though it's actually worked out in my advantage. I now use they excuse that I'm allergic to them so I can't be the one to kill them or pick them up to throw them away hahahaha. . .

So that's what kills me. I wonder what else I'll get. I wonder what will do me in. hahahaha . . .

Friday, March 19, 2010

THE LIGHT AT THE END OF THE TUNNEL

Well I did it, I finished college! After almost 5 years of college I finally finished! I spent 2 1/2 years at Darton College in Albany as a Special Education major. My last semester there I decided that's not what I really wanted to do. I could have become a special ed. teacher and done that every day till forever but I wouldn't be happy. I just would have been another person who hates there job but is stuck there. I won't be that person! However, I did have a little rough patch and I didn't graduate from Darton(A problem about skipping classes and failing statistics lol). But anyways I decided that if I am going to something for the rest of my life then it's going to be something that I absolutely love doing. So I chose photography. I got accepted to Savannah College of Art and Design in Atlanta, Ga. I was excited to be doing something that I love and to be going to an art college instead of a regular one lol, but I was also really scared. I was scared to be living by myself way from everyone I know . But after a very hard and sometimes very loooong 2 years and 3 months I FINISHED! IT'S DONE! IT'S OVER! It is such a relief to finally know that I don't have to worry about all of that any more. Now it's just finding a job and supporting myself to worry about but that's a whole nother deal lol. My last day was Thursday March 11 but it didn't really hit me just how good it feels until the other day when I realized that those feelings of never being able to make it, not get through it, can't live here, can't do this, etc. all of those feelings are gone! That scared, depressed, hopeless feeling is gone! I thought that those 2 years would feel like forever and now there over. I know that when tough times are ahead of you they feel like they will never end but then when it's over you look back and think wow I made it, I did it. It seems to happen in the blink of an eye. People always say that the older you get the fast time goes by and I am glad that it's true when it comes to hard times. So here's to the hard times that I made through. To the horrible feelings I felt but persevered on. Here's to those of you who are going through tough times and feel like it will never end. Keep on pushing through and you'll make it.

I DID IT! I'M A COLLEGE GRADUATE!!!!